Love Me

not for the modest dresses I wear
or for the Bible verses I have memorized
not for the way I look away when they show sex on tv
not for the way I don't drink or club

no, no
love me for trying
love me for sincerity of belief
love me for loving Song of Solomon
   because it is so dang horny I can't even
love me for loving beauty
for trying

love me for liking cuddles
don't love the chastity
no
love me for loving

I'm tired of you loving my innocence
I'm tired of you loving my feminity and chastity
Love me in the darkness
Because I don't pretend that the world is bright
but I still believe in the Light

surface, surface things
you love the smile you think hides an empty canvas
ready for you to paint with thoughts of God

no, silly child
no
I think for myself
I am a lady and I think for myself
The canvas is full of paint, oil and acrylic
colors dark and bright
tainted and painted
God sees me

so no, don't love me for serving communion
or for the smiles I give after church
   to the sweet ladies with powdery hair and
   powdered noses, me trying to be feminine
if that is really definable
love me for loving
for trying
for seeing
and for liking the horniest book of the Bible.