Nature's Wedding

The rocks are pretty tonight

A little on the hefty side

they're self-conscious to have to

bare their bodies to every stranger

that passes by

they've been the haven

of lovers and strangers

these rocks have seen it all

they stand so lifeless by the shore

restrained till high tide

when they marry the ocean

the rocks slowly formed

from sand and water and

rain and sun

pushed and punched

and pulled and stretched

pain produced demure beauty

the rocks marry the waves marry the wind.

Two Words and Two Worlds

What is perceived
is different from what is expressed.
We construct our own worlds

That's why hand-in-hand
is a longing so deep
why toe-to-toe seems like heaven;
because our words cannot meet and merge
and embrace and kiss and unite and make love
because the air devours them one-by-one
the hateful air with its ravenous appetite
for disconnection
refuses to let our words
tell the same story

but if our words cannot merge
will our haptic hugs be any better?

Someday

Someday I will find someone
Who feels like an old church song
that I remember crying to

Someday I will find someone
Whose kisses seem holy,
not rebellious

Someday I will find someone
who feels divine

But till then.

You

You're like a brown, dry plant
that I can't seem to let go of
you've grown on me
like a runner, like a morning glory
you've grown on me
not green, not fresh
but I'm tied to you somehow

you are steady

like a foot
that smells a little bad
but helps me walk
you help me

like muscles that aren't quite flexed
but still present
still strong

I love you
I hate you.

Burung

Andai kata anda di sini

Andai kata aku menangis

Adakah kau memelukku?

Ataupun memandangku bagai

burung yang tidak kau fahami

Aku mencicit

Aku menyanyi

Dengarlah, aku jerit.

Aku bagaikan ombak

melambai-lambai

ombak kecil

ya, ombak tanah air

bukan ombak besar

bukan ombak Australia

bukan ombak negeri orang

di tepi ombak biasa, kecil

aku pasti 

dapat cari

burung mencicit

yang boleh menyanyi

bersamaku

"Hujan emas di negeri orang, hujan batu di negeri sendiri, baik juga di negeri sendiri"

aduhai

Aku betul-betul rindu kau. Tapi aku tak mahu kacau. Jadi, aka duduk je; mandi dalam kesunyian hati. Maaf kalau aku membuat kau rasa bersalah. Aku lemah dari cuba. Ku tak mahu cuba lagi. Ku puas memberatkan hati orang lain. Jadi ku diam je. Ku tulis pun dalam Bahasa Malaysia s'bab ku tak mahu orang baca. Orang asing baca.

Air mata mengalir dan hati berdebar. Ku tak de sebab untuk hidup.

Ku mahu tidur tapi rasa bersalah pula.

Aduhai.

Melandaku

Ku rindu
ombak kecilmu

Ku rindu
agin kencangmu

Ku rindu hujanmu
yang melandaku
bagai peninju
ku rindumu

Ku mahu
menari
sambil laut menyanyi untukku
lagunya indah rupa dari khabar
rasalah